Cry

Years ago
You would sit and listen to me cry on the phone
All of my troubles
Spilling my entire heart
In tears
And sobs
But now
I cry silently
Because you told me crying was for babies
And you wonder why I say nothing

Killer

Call me a grinch
A partypooper
A pessimist
A scrooge
A killjoy
But atleast I'm not a killer like you

Secrets

People just have
Too many
Secrets
For me to keep up with
Anymore

Double

Just when I thought you would
Leave me alone
I'm seeing double
Help

Shadow

Love me for me
Not because I speak of long
Lost
Romance

Breath

Five seconds
That's all it takes
For the frame
Of you
To take my breath
Away

Next

I'm sure you'll be next
To be captured
In my text

Danger

Before
I could never see you
You would hide
Because that was your job
To hide
And to make sure
I was safe
But now
Now
I see you everywhere I look
And I feel the most danger
I have ever felt

Empty Heart

I remember
When you used to talk to me
When I was asleep
On the phone with you
Late at night
But what you didn't know
Was that I was really awake
And listening to your true feelings
Of how much you loved me
The things you were too scared to tell me
But now
When I fall asleep
There is no talking
Just silence
An empty line
And an empty heart

Star

You
Are every single star
In the sky
And I can't help but stare
At your light
Your beauty
And I can't stop wishing
That one day
You might fall out of the sky
Straight to me

Truth

Is your heart beating as fast as mine?

Morning

There are those mornings
When you wake up
On the right side of the bed
And tell yourself
Hey, everything, is going to be alright today
You aren't going to have your heart crushed by a ninja
Or be insulted by your best friend who was a spy
Or fight with your vigilante boyfriend
Or miss your other best friend who has a porn website
Or see images on the internet of the girls who fucked with you
I certainly cannot wait
To have one of those mornings

Dreams

I dreamt of you last night
You told me you loved me
That I was your best friend
That you would do anything for me
Protect me
Screw me over
And leave me to die
I woke up screaming
Crying in pain
Wait a minute
That wasn't a dream
That was real life

Cut

There's nothing but a line now
Thin and white
Two inches in length
It doesn't hurt him anymore
But it still kills me

Birth

Atleast we made some sense of this chaos
And found the beginning in the end

Missing You

That sinking feeling
Deep down inside my stomach
The butterflies dancing
Spinning my world upside down
Making my teeth chatter
My body shake
That's me missing you

Pretend

Sometimes at night
I lay awake
Wondering
If you're laying awake too
At this exact moment
Or maybe
We're running
Through cold, dark streets
Screaming and dancing
Making magic
Playing
But that's just all pretend

Dead

Pushing up dasies
Lifeless
Departed
Breathless
Insensitive
Senseless
Obsolete
Gone
This is possibly the most ironic thing I've ever written
You know why

Dancing

Moving
To the symphony of clicks
Slowly
A sweet desire
Foreign motivations
Poison
Each letter spelling danger
A delicious danger
Simultaneously
Rhythmically
Dancing in your key strokes
Twirling and revelling
In our ordered chaos

Touch

I still sit
Staring at blank screens
Touching those old words
Staring at an empty touch
I will never know

Sweet Melodies

Sweet melodies
I can hear the angel playing
Sweet melodies
Sewing dreams
Taste the sincerity
In my mouth
A calming touch
Grass tickling skin
In the warm breeze
In an empty meadow
But tasteless whispers
"I feel for you"
False motivations
Empty vows
Fueled by intoxicating poisons
Let me in
Please, let me in
Feelings gone horribly wrong
Loneliness
I can't forget those images,
Those words,
Those promises
"I will make all your worries disappear"
The sadness
Sweet sadness
Angels' lying
In the warm breeze
In an empty meadow
Sweet melodies
Hear the angel playing
I'm haunted